I’m not doing that

Apparently I’m confrontational. This is to the people who think this.

I’m too abrasive to do effective advocacy.

Too rude.

Too direct.

Too inflexible.

It’s because I say things like, “Autistic people, not non-autistic family members, should be directing the autistic advocacy movement.”

That means exactly what it says. It doesn’t mean that non-autistic parents shouldn’t speak up (or, indeed, speak for their kids at times) for the good of their kids. Nor does it mean any of 1000 other things that people read into it.

But that’s not how people too often hear it. And I’m the one who is supposed to translate my language into something that nobody can take what I left unsaid and make it say something I didn’t say. Something like “parent’s shouldn’t be involved in autistic advocacy” or “non-autistics are bad people” or whatever else I didn’t say.

Sorry. I’m not doing that.

I’m sick of disclaimers. I already have to put too many in place – see the above three paragraphs!

If I say, “people shouldn’t mention lack of services in the same sentence as discussing the murder of an autistic person by their family,” people think I’m saying that lack of services isn’t a legitimate problem. Well, I’m not. And I’m not going to write four paragraphs every time I say something like this to explain that, no, I didn’t say anything about your stress level or ability to get services your child needs.

Sorry, I’m just not doing that.

Nor am I going to pretend that non-autistics that are trying to appropriate my community’s identity are okay. It’s not. There is a difference between someone experiencing autism in themselves and someone experiencing it in someone else. Sure, someone else might have tremendous love and insight – which is awesome and great. And they might say and speak and do great things that help many people. I too will celebrate it. But it’s not your identity. It might be your kid’s, which means you care what happens. That’s fine.

I know there are decent neurotypicals (and, no, neurotypical is not an insult). I shouldn’t need to say that every single fricking time I write something!

I certainly shouldn’t need to go further and constantly gush over the people who do it right. You don’t become an ally so you can be gushed over. It shouldn’t be necessary. If I compliment or acknowledge goodness, that’s a fine thing. But it shouldn’t be required of an autistic person doing advocacy!

I’m asking for my community’s allies to loose a bit of defensiveness and not read everything written by members of the community they are advocating for as if it might be hateful towards them. I’m not hateful of neurotypicals. Nor are most of us (I’m sure someone can find counter examples of hate from autistics, but that’s not the point – I’m not claiming my community is perfect). Heck, I’m one of the first typically to call out an autistic who implies that all neurotypicals are evil or bad or hateful. But by the same token, I should be able to write about discrimination and problems we experience in a world not designed for us without everyone thinking that I’m implying all neurotypicals are bad or evil.

Our ability to speak about our own community should not be dependent upon being good little autistics. It shouldn’t be dependent upon people not seeing any way to take our words wrongly. It certainly shouldn’t be dependent upon people who claim falsely to be allies feeling good about our words. If you’re only our ally when we’re polite and nice and have the right disclaimers, you’re not a good ally!

For those allies that get this, thank you. We do appreciate it.

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One Response to I’m not doing that

  1. Alyssa says:

    Yeah, this. This is a thing and it’s important. I think Kassiane’s piece on allies was the first time I saw this pointed out, but it lalways needs said more times.